hikayat hujung jari...

"i like my new telephone, my computer works just fine, my calculator is perfect, but Lord, i miss my mind !" ~Author Unknown   budak pempuan tu cume 3 tahun. tapi dia ade iPad ! mummy die tgk je die gelak2 layan gambar kartun cakap2. budak lelaki ni lak 11 taun da dpt lappy n iPhone. terima kasih kpd pencetus idea, si disleksia genius Einstein & Edison. zaman aku umur camtu, aku cume ade barbie doll,pinggan mangkuk mainan & lego. men tuka2 baju barbie, cantum2 lego jadi kereta, rumah. lebih awkward, diorang da pegang DSLR ! apakah fairytale da tak wujud sebab semua da jd kenyataan? Mungkin zaman sekarang imaginasi tu bkn lagi pencetus kreativiti kot. tipikal.

a bell is no bell till you ring it, a song is no song till you sing it, and love in your heart, wasn't put there to stay love isn't love  till you give it away.

"We shall never know all the good that a simple smile can do." (Mother Teresa) peace begins with a smile. smile born a friendship, grow a love. smile is a killer of hurt. smile is a big simple liar. treat with a smile, averse a foolish. do keep on smiling receptionist !

Don't walk behind me, i may not lead. Don't walk in front of me, i may not follow. Walk besides me and be my friend. A single rose can be my garden... a single friend, my world.

i wish to be a writer, to tell the world how manners should be mannered. i wish to be a designer, to design the colour of natural and nice, how should ourselves be. i wish to be a ballerina, dancing like a wind, lightly and honest. not to talk nor judge other like talking to the mirror.

 "killing the time is not murder, it's suicide." perjalanan ke shah alam yg cume tak sampai sejam blh jadi 2 jam. kan suicide tuh. lebih terhukum lagi bile sigboard2 menipu. tak kearah jln yg lurus ! haih. malu nk ngaku tapi aku ngaku gak,  sumpah aku sesat. waaaaa ! nasib bek interview tgh hari. masalahnye,,,,bkn tak penah pegi shah alam uh.  sebenarnye aku yg susah nk igt jalan. hahah ! ok, my bad. hafal 10 formula investment tu lagi senang dpd nak ingat jalan ! I had to stop driving my car for a while...  the tires got dizzy !

sir, you are under arrested ! suspected for a case of attention stealing, to be charged in the court of love, and to be arrested in the jail of heart, please stay safe deary criminal.

"tried harder and harder is not a key to an achievement, i bet." am i too prejudice to a word - "fate"  or the world is being unfair and faked the fate ??  its seems like all things fuck' easy for them. no striving nor full effort to build the bridges. learn with pleasure  like i used to be is now a pressure ! its all a mess.

bagaikan Amazing Race ! dgn sandang beg, jln lari2 amik teksi, amik LRT. checkpoint- pudu ! 6:33 pm smpai platform-bas da blah. ok, utk 3 mnt yg lwt ! ahh kejamnya kau encik trans. tak pikir panjang, terus g counter by counter.  ( jgn korbankn hari raya korban nih ! ) "tiket ke Kuantan utk hari ni ngan esok da habis dik" ... ok plan B, - pekeliling (titiwangsa) - dgn harapan yg tak berape nk ade, lawat jgk la satu2 kaunter. hah, tayah tanye. kt cermin kaunter tu sume da tertampal  "tiket ke Kuantan hari ni HABISS" plan C, aku drive blk. (erk!) tibe-tibe..... 7:30pm aku dgr..... "plusliner ke kuantan 6.30 naik skrg.  bas lewat !" da lebih 10 kali beliau jerit n bas masih tak penuh, aku pun g tanye kt drebar.  aku : bas ni penuh ke ? drebar : tiket awk kul bape ? aku : tade. (dgn tak malu nye ) drebar : hah ??! cane tuh ? (sambil mengoffer nek wira ekspress beliau) * blur * 10 mnt, hakak jerit td dtg kt aku membawa berita. ade 2 sea...

this is another news from sky-Cameron Highlands ! another trip, another story.. seronoklah sbb trip kali ni family trip n yang penting,  da tade lagi  'tricky2 question & running2 out of time' mcm trip yg lps. ( HAPPY TRIPPY ON A TYRICKY LANE!) so,  "let images speak !" flashback zmn mude ke...;) pose2 yg menyerlahkn poyo masing2 berlatarbelakangkan scenery lepas hujan anytime is a tea time ! teh tarik float mmg wajib bg kami. terbaek. round2 brinchang n tringkap berselang-seli dengan hujan  yg menyebabkan tido mlm bertemankn perasaan bagai di NZ. over. moment2 yg sempat aku capture. itula jawapannye nape muke ak tak banyak kt sini. C.H, you really blew my minds away.

you are the one. the one who came like a star in the night sky. be my friend when i have none, whisper like a summer breeze.. to warming and sighing my heart. to be the one who makes me wanna sings.. till all my life, my heart has yearned for a thing i cannot name.  thank you.. i am gifted to have a 'lovely u'...

" Fesyen Tudung Menyerupai Rahib Wanita Kristian " !?? artikle kt fb berbunyi begitu..  uhh ! seram lak ah dgr. mungkin kebetulan, dn mungkin jgk slh satu pndangan mereka yg concern. tapi tak pulak dorang sentuh yg bertudung tp pakai legging. bertudung+short dress+legging paras betis. err...itu tak fhm konsep bertudung ke fasion crime ? teeettt !! ape pule pndangan pd yg tak bertudung langsung ? ok, tak nk komen lebih..nanti sentap. betul atau salah, siapa kita nk menghakimi. yg penting nawaitu ! berbalik, itu antara mereka dgn Dia. kalau ragu2, jgn la ikut. bkn begitu ? p/s : ingat-mengingati itu perlu.

"waktu terasa semakin berlalu tinggalkan cerita tentang kita......" mungkin waktu itu singkat. mungkin tak banyak kenangan yg sempat kita ciptakan. tapi.. tetap pasti, semua tu berbekas di dlm hati. bergelak ketawe sebelum tidur, shoot ke downtown tgh mlm even  masing2 balik keje da penat, men conteng2 buku time mengantok dengar lect ngajar.  mana mungkin blh lupa ! paling tak boleh bla, bngun kul 4 pagi semate2 nk angkt almari runtuh. haha.. hasilnya.. pernah juge kita saling menjauh.. adat berkawan kalau pernah terkecil hati. ade khilaf, ade kelemahan. itu lumrah.. namun, takde satu pn yg diharap akn tersimpan dlm hati kita.. panjang umur jumpa lagi,  sahabat...

jiwe seakan.... uhh. tak mampu utk di maksudkn.  up and down and up and down. mau menulis, ayat tetap tersirat mau menaip, jari terkaku lagi. hujung jari da tak mampu berhikayat lagi. mungkinkah ?! smue nak jadi punce. disane dan disini, si hipokrit dgn kisah silam sungguh rakus  membawe pergi inspirasi itu. sugguh hiperbola bukan ? pada jiwa menerima, yg pergi biarkn pergi yg hilang tak usah dicari. "hidup ibarat roda, kadang kita di atas, kadang pula kita di bawah" ironinya..

"if you share the pain, it will be half. if you share the happiness it will be double" fyi..share "pain" tak sesenang share "happiness" takutkn judgemental mungkin.. atau mungkin, langkah terbaik ialah memaafkan. maaf?org kate itu hadiah yg plg mahal. emm..hukuman yg terindah, mungkin fyi, bukan memaafkn kerana "sy suke awk" cume, fyi, "maaf" kerana masih ade jiwe memaafkan. takde niat mengumpul musuh, hanye menjernihkan. tapi, mungkin bagi disana, inilah noktahnya. takpe.. fyi, masih pada jiwa menerima.

perjalanan mencari harta karun! tak penah2 gi holiday kene jwb teke-teki dulu baru blh sampai. jln kuantan-lanchang-raub-koyan-post betau-cameron highlands tibe2 jadi sgt adventure. da mcm blakon cite Indiana Jones da hah. kene bace map bagai n yg paling ta blh bla kene bace sume signboard kt atas jln tuh dgn signboard2 kedai skali lah. harusla jawapan teke-teki sume ade kt dlm signboard2 tu. hahaa klakar okeh. bahase soklan pule ta nak mcm puteri  gunung ledang punye skrip kan.. siriyes, ini mmg tricky lane! act, last 2nd july me n family join treasure hunt, kembare bersame pahangfm. seronok! so, markah penuh utk pahanhfm. kt rtm sebelum berlepas. pasang bendera dulu.  harus 1 M'sia! pose dulu ok. cayok team 49! cameron, here we come! si panglipur lara! peace... tgk ketas soalan tebal tak tebal hah. slh satu ketas jawapan k.. soklan tu ade kaitan ngn penyanyi rafeah buang. pening tidak?? ...

innalillahwainnalillahirojiun.... "ingat 5 perkara sebelum 5 perkara. ....sihat sebelum sakit...." siapa sangke. last kite jumpe 29 April hari tu, ijah sihat, blh senyum, blh gelak2 tapi pagi ni, first morning call ak dpt berite ijah da tak de.. even die bkn kwn rapat, tp die still kwn yg baik. sape sangke yg tak rapat tu la slalu ade time ak ade masalah. apepun kite hanye mampu merancang. Allah lebih menyayanginya. semoga ijah ditempatkan dlm kalangan org2 yg beriman... amin.. al-fatihah....

the mind-computer system deleted memory on you and keep deleting. the dustbin up here keep receiving the unused data             --non stop-- and i'm working on the big spaces left. my 'delete' button functioned well i guess.  sorry dude, you're erased.

once you can hurt, you can love. thats a human

wipes away your sweat in tough times, and your tears in moments of sorrow. keep stay in your hand on the special,  and wondrous day it is priceless to be and to be with  someone who could bring back your smiles

studied in a course i've never imagine to get into. it sicks me up !  till i met an awesome u.. yet, it still sucks to loves and to be loved with an unlucky love. frens come and leave. she'd turned back and i'm not going to be her same "stuff". nothings gonna be the same. sooner or later, i got to move on but trying  to get all things back on the track is harder than i thought.  i don't get it. it just like trying to solve a math problem. even though u'd found the answer, u still can't understands on it.  if ever they can be hidden in a secret locked box....

trying to be all things to all people is a recipe  to disaster

Satu masa dulu.. Waktu sem 3 utk subjek BEL311 (english). aku dan kawan sekelas diminta menulis poem. what? Keje Sir Izat la tu.  Tujuannye, beliau cube mendetect  sistem vocab kami. Tahap broken lebih tepatnya, tapi  dengan cara yg kreatif.  mesti siap dalam masa sejam. kau rasa? 45 minit terus berlalu.  Pen aku masih bersusun kemas. Kertas aku masih kosong. jiwa seni yg dicari belum pun dijumpai.  selepas termenung, pandang awan, pandang kaki, secara tiba-tiba muncul huruf pertame - "T" dan lantas, terhasil la sebuah poem.. "FRIENDS BEGONE" Rentetan dari sebuah cerita yang pernah tercipta antara kami berlima cerita dan pengalaman yang touching. sehingga menyentuh sperasaan Sir. Kah! I guess so.. and the 15 minutes poem is the best among the best 3. He reward me with colourfull pens and a Rocky Biscuits.

do you believe in love at first sight or should i walk by again?